Because

I have learned, again, that I am both wanted and needed here.  In this life. On this earth.  On my daily walks on the sidewalk.  On my daily walk before God and man.  Sometimes I do not want to know that I am needed or wanted.  It’s impossible for me to stay down when there are so many who believe.  A painful thing.  A wondrous thing.

Perhaps you, dearest Reader, believe that no one wants you, or that no one needs you.  I do.  I, Adam Scott Campbell, want you and need you.  I can look at my blog stats and learn when my blog has had a visitor. Seeing that, seeing the stats, the daily stats, saves my life.  I mean that in a very literal sense.  Those daily, weekly hits on Embattled We prove to me that someone values what I have to say.  That he or she values me.  Maybe…

Maybe, probably, very likely you have had a moment, maybe many moments wherein you wondered what I have.  “Why should I keep going?”

I don’t use the word “try”.  I have no appreciation, none, for the word “try”.  “Why should I try” is a phrase used by someone who has given up.

“Why do I keep going” is a question leading to action, the act of fighting through the fire and the storm to your core and learning about the wondrous person you are, who you have always been and always will be.  Followed all the way through, it is a question that leads you to your life purpose, your Why.

I have found my Why.  “I want to touch one more life.”  This is at the core of my Core.  How many people live on this earth?  How many times can I touch just one of them?  The possibilities are endless.

So why then would I find any desire to be done, if my Core can be filled in this life?  The answer lies in my wholehearted belief that there is life after this life and that others are waiting for me there.  But more, it lies in my understanding of just how impossibly wonderful that after-earth-life is.  Imagine having happiness fill you.  Imagine it overflowing.  Imagine yourself so happy that you are compelled to share it with every soul who crosses your path.  That is what I see in my afterlife.

So, the final question: Why not take myself there?

And the final answer: That would be taking God’s right for myself.  God gave me my life.  It’s His to take, in His time and in His way.

Adam Scott Campbell